A moment of clarity

 One word.
One Line.
One verse, one chorus, one song.
It was one of those rare moments in life where everything fits.  You're driving along randomly surfing through your mp3s when out of nowhere that song comes on.  You know the one I'm talking about.  Yeah, that  one.  It's a song that reaches deep into your chest and grips your soul from the shell of your heart and twists it in such a way you cannot ignore any longer.  You can listen to it a thousand times and each one will be different, unique. The words may be simple or they could be so shrouded in mystery that only you and maybe 3 other ppl on earth get the reference ;)  But whatever they are, they become yours.  

Music touches each of us in very personal ways.  We have songs for almost every event in our lives.  The one that reminds us of pleasant things, and painful times.  There are so many that have touched me in different ways over the years.  I thank my father's memory for raising me to appreciate that music can be more than just a catchy tune.  It can be a warm comfy blanket of memories, good and bad.

I have a song to share with you before I leave.  It may not be your type, but the message has a desperate ring of truth to it if you ask me ;)   Let's just say it hits me pretty hard when I hear it.

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Fuck it, here's another quiz or 12

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Extreme
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very High
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
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    I think I'm paranoid-Garbage

Has it been so very long??

 yeah pretty much it has.  God my life keeps changing :(,  I wish it would just stay normal for once.  (then again to those who know me, have I ever been "normal"?)  I am once again in a different vocation.  I am now employed by a local dive restaurant called Dairy Hut.  Quite a change from my last two jobs and rather humbling it seems.  I fought some horrible daemons this year and think I have finally locked them deep in a secret place inside me if nothing else.  There are many things that happened that I just honestly don't wish to post in a public online forum ya know, lol.  Too many eyes are watching these days.  I feel more jaded and bitter at this point in my life than I ever have before.  I grew up a lot this past year and not all of it for the better I guess.  I went from being one of those ppl who look for the good in everyone and everything to this paranoid cynic who is always wondering what's next to go wrong.  I can't be completely happy and comfy cozy anymore I suppose, reality is out to get me.  I saw some of my oldest and "best" friends become my enemies overnight.  These were the ones I grew up with and thought would always be some part in my life.  Now I know that I was never more to them than a way to procure whatever they wanted, be it food, recreational things, or even just a ear to whine into.  You've all seen that stray dog on the streets that has been beaten and scarred, maybe missing an ear or something.  Anyways  you look at it and think that it's spirit must be broken till you see that gleam in it's eye.  The one that tells you the animal has been severely fucked in it's lifetime, but will never be again.  The next unlucky soul that raises a hand or voice to this creature will learn that sometimes a bite is much, much worse than a bark.  Well, that's enough bitching for one post.  Sorry to anyone who actually read this far, it was just some ramblings that needed to escape from my too jumbled mind.  I'll try to make the next post all rainbows and sunshine to make up for it.  Much loves to absent LJ friends that have probably forgotten my existence.  Guess what?  I'm back, version 2.0

stolen from elmer

Leave me a comment!

1. I'll respond with something random about you (probably an inside joke of some kind)
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours.

This goes for Real life friends, and LJ's as well, lets hope you all respond!
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now a serious post.

okay ppl, I've got good news and bad.

Bad first: Granny has breast cancer. It's a lump in her left breast and she will have to have the entire breast removed.

Good news: She will be okay! :) She is going to have the surgery this Tuesday at 8 am and the doctors all say she will be cured after removal of the breast. She might not even need chemo.

This is why I hadn't called you back yet Will, it's been slightly hectic around here lately. But I didn get the message and will call you asap. Promise :)

I've been off work now for 3 weeks with a sprained elbow. I actually have to take physical therapy for it 3 times a week. I never realized you could actually do that much damage to an elbow.

Umm lets see what else,,, Oh i have 2 puppies, a brown mutt and a black mutt, lol. Both female, brown on is Lil Bit, and black one is Trixie. I am going to have to get one of those bark control collars for Lil Bit, she will not shut up!! She even barks at air.

Well that's enough for now, I have to get a few hours of sleep before I goto therapy. Goodnight and love to all my friends. :) <3

long ass quiz thingy

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

I miss somebody right now. I don't watch much TV these days. I own lots of books.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.  (both actually) I love to play video games. I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies. × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (unless it's better to lie, lol. j/k)
I curse sometimes.  (make that a lot) I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.  (in my My Little Pony purse)
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Looks like I'm it!

"List up to ten (10) things you want to say to ten (10) people. Do not state who these people are. Do not confirm or deny any comment speculation. Tag five (5) people."

Wolfgang, I shall have to hurt you for this, lol ;)

1. You are my friend and I worry about you, that's why the lieing has to stop.

2. I always think of you when I remeber "the good old days"

3. I wish things had turned out different between us, but sometimes life gets in the way.

4. I miss you and hope to see you again.


6. Even though we never met in person, I feel there is a conection between us. Be safe and happy my friend.

7. Who knows what tomorrow will bring, try living for today.

8. You have inspired me to be who I am today. for that, I don't know if I should thank you or slap you, lol.

9. Do you ever think of me?

10. Someday we will look back at life and laugh over a good bottle of wine.

okay now to spread the pain..
I tag
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    xm online

a couple of funnys

Five tips for women every where!!

1. It is important that a man helps you around the house and has a job.

2. It is important that a man makes you laugh.

3. It is important to find a man you can count on and doesn't lie to you.

4. It is important that a man loves you and spoils you.

5. It is important that these four men don't know each other.

Friends and Homies
the difference between FRIENDS and HOMIES....

FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
HOMIES: are the reason you have no food.

FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
HOMIES: Call your parents DAD/MOM

FRIENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
HOMIES: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"

FRIENDS: never seen you cry.
HOMIES: cry with you

FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
HOMIES: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.

FRIENDS: know a few things about you.
HOMIES: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
HOMIES: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
HOMIES: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"

FRIENDS: Are for awhile.
HOMIES: Are for life.

FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
HOMIES: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."

FRIENDS: will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.
HOMIES: Will knock them the fuck out

FRIENDS: Tell you what you want to hear
HOMIES: Tell you what really happened because you deserve to know the truth. Even if it hurts!
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